Gracie’s hands flew to her mouth.
Then she began nodding so hard her curls bounced around her face.
I stayed behind the kitchen curtain until they came inside.
That night, I cried into my pillow so no one would hear.
And the thoughts running through my mind made me ashamed.
Noah could not really find Gracie more attractive than me.
Maybe he felt sorry for her.
Maybe he wanted everyone to think he was unusually kind.
Maybe there was another reason.
Money.
Approval.
Some strange desire to become part of our family without marrying me.
I hated myself for thinking those things about my own sister.
But I could not stop.
“You’ll Be My Maid of Honor”
The next morning, Gracie entered my bedroom carrying her laptop.
“Will you help me make a wedding board?”
I forced a smile.
“Of course.”
“You’ll be my maid of honor.”
She grabbed both my hands.
“Promise?”
“I promise.”
Part of me expected our parents to object.
They had always been extremely protective of Gracie.
Sometimes too protective.
They monitored her friendships.
Controlled her spending.
Discussed her future while she was standing in the same room, as though she could not hear them.
Yet when Noah announced their engagement, my parents simply smiled.
“Noah will take excellent care of her,” Mom said.
Dad clapped Noah on the shoulder.
“You chose wisely.”
Something about that sentence hurt more than it should have.
Their Wedding
The wedding was small.
Noah wore a charcoal suit.
When Gracie entered the ceremony room, he began crying before she even reached him.
There was nothing calculated in his expression.
No performance.
Only love.
Still, while he placed the ring on her finger, I wondered whether I truly knew the man I had called my best friend for most of my life.
Three years passed.
Eventually, most of my private pain faded.
I met a kind man named Owen.
Gracie and Noah bought a yellow house near the edge of Cedarbrook.
She called me every morning at nine.
Sometimes she told me what she was wearing.
Sometimes she described whatever Noah had cooked for breakfast.
Sometimes she only wanted to explain that the weather looked “extremely Wednesday.”
Then came the telephone call I had secretly hoped she would make one day.
“I’m going to be a mother.”
I sat down on the floor of my apartment.
“What?”
“We’re having twins.”
I laughed and cried at the same time.
For most of Gracie’s life, people had spoken endlessly about everything she would supposedly never do.
She would never live independently.
Never marry.
Never build a home.
Never become a mother.
Now she was carrying twins.
I wanted joy that large to arrive without fear.
It did not.
34 Weeks
The pregnancy was difficult almost from the beginning.
Gracie experienced complication after complication.
Noah attended every appointment.
He memorized every medication.
He kept notebooks filled with questions for her doctors.
Then, at thirty-four weeks, Gracie was rushed to Rosehaven Medical Center.
By the time I arrived, she had already been taken into surgery.
The waiting-room clock crawled past midnight.
I stared at the double doors, willing someone to come through with good news.
Noah sat beside me.
His knee bounced uncontrollably.
“She’s going to be okay,” I whispered.
I was speaking more to myself than to him.
“Gracie is strong.”
Noah covered his face with both hands.
A sound escaped him somewhere between a sob and a prayer.
Then a doctor appeared.
Noah stood so quickly his chair struck the wall.
The doctor’s expression told us something was wrong before he spoke.
“Grace has lost a dangerous amount of blood.”
My legs weakened.
“The babies are stable, but she remains in critical condition.”
I grabbed the back of a chair.
“We are doing everything possible,” the doctor continued. “But you should prepare yourselves for every outcome.”
Then he disappeared through the doors again.
Noah remained standing.
His body swayed slightly.
I placed one hand against his back.
My oldest friend.
My brother in every way that mattered.
“Look at me.”
He did.
“Gracie chose you because you make her feel safe.”
His eyes filled.
“You need to hold onto that.”
“My promise,” he whispered.
“What promise?”
Something changed in his expression.
There was fear.
But also guilt.
“I need to tell you something.”
“We are talking.”
“Not here.”
“Tell Amelia Everything”
Noah led me down the corridor to an empty alcove beside the stairwell.
The maternity ward became distant behind us.
He leaned against the wall.
“Before they took Gracie into surgery, she made me promise something.”
“What?”
“She said, ‘If I don’t wake up, tell Amelia everything.’”
Cold spread through me.
“Everything about what?”
Noah reached inside his jacket.
His fingers were shaking.
“It is time you understood why I really married your sister.”
I grabbed the railing.
“Do not say that.”
“Amelia—”
“Do not destroy four years of watching her smile because of you.”
“You think I want this conversation while my wife is fighting for her life?”
“Then why are we having it?”
“Because Gracie asked me to.”
See more on the next page